"Remember me?"

Pursuing a dream is tough. At some point in my life, I stopped taking risks. I took the easy route, and chose a career over my dreams. I loved the career I chose, but dreams seem so much more exiting. People who can I say, "I accomplished my dreams" fascinate me." I wonder if those people ever switched off on dreams or gave up on, at least, two of them.

You see, in high school I signed every yearbook with the following phrase; "Follow your dreams, they'll take you anywhere you want to go." This was my motto, my life mission, my credence, and yet I gave up on my teenage dreams. I found new goals along the way, but that dream never seemed to die. I kept that dream going until part of that dream was shattered in 2006 by a man that I loved and trusted. I then shifted gears, and went the practical route, which gave me credibility with my family. I grew in my faith in the Lord. I learned about the importance of managing money. I met an amazing man who loves me more than anyone else on this earth and who taught me to love again. Yet, through it all that little dream kept popping its head up and saying "Remember me? You loved me once." My inner monologue would patronize it, saying, "I'll get to you in a minute," but I never did.

When I graduated from school in 2005, I was ready to take on the world. I had my acting degree and I was ready to audition for every show I could. Then, I had that wedding to plan, and realized the man I was about to marry didn't love me, and for some reason when all of this went down hill, I had to make a new plan for myself.

So I started looking at my second passion in life: working with kids. Who works with kids? The finalists on that list were Teachers and Social Workers. So, I decided to become a teacher. Better yet, I became a Special Education teacher, and I am a damn good teacher. Kids that no one else can handle, I can deal with it. I dropped that little ol' dream of acting and poured my heart & soul into my kids. I probably spent 200/ month on my classroom supplies; buying markers and crayons, books, workbooks, and necessities for some of my more needy students. I loved seeing the kids come in and learn. I especially enjoy middle school, because they are still kids, yet they understand sarcasm and know pop culture. So chasing the the acting dream, just sat there for three years while I helped mold the future of America.

The more and more I sit around waiting for people to call and filling out job applications online, I keep thinking I need to do something with my talents. Something that will help people, maybe kids, maybe teens. I hope I can use these talents to praise God. I have been praying and asking the Lord to guide me, but this little "dream" keeps bugging me to reach for it. Maybe, I will fulfill my life's goal. Who knows? Maybe I'll be one of those people who said "I accomplished my dreams."

Dream: Remember me? You loved me once.

Debbie: Hey, I was just thinking about you. Sorry, I've been so busy, pal. Wanna hang out today?